Baby

I swore off Christmas this year, swore off the emptiness of celebrating without my Beloved.

Jan 1 • Kaylene

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December 2025

Storm

I burn all the candles in the house. It has been seventy-two hours without power. The one generator keeps water in the barn thawed for the horses.

Dec 17, 2025 • Kaylene

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November 2025

Object Lessons

It has been one hundred days of “Good morning, Love,” without reply. One hundred nights, my hand on your pillow, remembering the feel of your hand…

Nov 23, 2025 • Kaylene

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October 2025

Across the Veil

It’s the little things, like sending a text to wish friends a happy anniversary and seeing that the last message I sent them was the news that you had…

Oct 21, 2025 • Kaylene

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September 2025

Show me

I fall asleep, my hand tucked under the weight of you, grounding me like an anchor to the earth.

Sep 18, 2025 • Kaylene

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August 2025

how i am doing

two weeks ago, my Beloved and i rode along the edge of a volcano. today i picked up his ashes.

Aug 26, 2025 • Kaylene

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July 2025

Pretending

These past days, we have pretended it isn’t true. Except for a tree-shaped shadow under the tender skin on his forearm and the fatigue— which has me…

Jul 19, 2025 • Kaylene

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Listening for water

Finding farm and wilderness in unexpected places

Jul 1, 2025 • Kaylene

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June 2025

Rose

We arrived here on fire,

Jun 24, 2025 • Kaylene

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Train

My Beloved burning with fever, this cancer is like a runaway locomotive, me throwing switches one after the other while gulping information on how to…

Jun 11, 2025 • Kaylene

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May 2025

A Shiner

Eggplant purple with a swirl of pink

May 17, 2025 • Kaylene

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Thoughts on acceptance vs. surrender

Week eleven after diagnosis.

May 15, 2025 • Kaylene

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